Honesty
I haven't blogged for a while. I simply haven't had time, nor have I had much to say. The girls and I had a lovely family holiday away and spent some quality time together, and since then I've been working extra hours to try and make up for the money we spent (which was a lot!). During said quality time, the girls and I had some very candid conversations. I'm discovering much more about their feelings, who they are, their hopes and dreams... These were conversations we rarely had before splitting with their Dad. I've realised now that those conversations were discouraged. C's inability to open up leeched out to all of us. Deeper conversations became uncomfortable and cringy, because that's how he felt about them. I fell into this habit myself, because his discomfort became mine. He shut down emotional discussions to the extent that I simply stopped having them. Not just with him, but with anyone around me. C taught me to supress my emotions. He normalised t...